It Will All Get Better In Time

^.^

2009-12-17T05:53:49Z

Is it silly that Chapter 1 by SID still makes me cry to this day?
I dunno but it always has had a special place in my heart that no other song can live up to.
I wonder why...
It holds bad memories in it
But it also is sorta like a song of hope for me...
I dunno
Maybe it's me rambling cause I'm getting sick >o<
But got my Christmas Shopping done and my presents wrapped and under the tree!!!
Don't have to worry about that now.
Hopefully though I can get some money for Christmas to buy some more winter clothes haha
Lately I've been wearing sweaters and leggings like a cool kid >o<
My body temperature has always been high so I am always hot and never cold
The weather is super chilly here and I love it!!!
Cept when it fogs up my window and I can't see where I'm driving >o<

Oh well
But like I said, Chapter 1 has to be my favorite SID song ever. Now it's my ringtone :3

So
If I don't update this in the next week or so
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!
And have a safe new years!!!
I know what I'll be doing new years...
most likely sleeping and watching Kung Pow with my best friend since it's our tradition haha <3<3<3

BAI BAI <3 <3 <3

1. Future

2009-11-27T06:38:46Z

Title: Future
Rating: NC-17(ish)
Fandom: KPOP
Pairing: YunJae (TVXQ)
Genre: Smut (slight angst) and fluff
Disclaimer: I own not a single thing
Summary: It's been so long since they have been 5. Jaejoong just wants it all to end. Yunho has been busy with his drama and just wants to make his lover feel better.
A/N: I know everyone is feeling bad about the whole JaeChunSu misshaps going on in the world and we just want them to end. Hopefully they will soon. In the mean time, slight smut, slight angst, slight fluff for yous guys.

Jaejoong sighed deeply as he plopped down on the couch, a cold drink in one hand and the remote control in the other.
Once again, another day, another predicament to deal with.
All he wanted to do is sing again with the members... like old times.
Refusing to let the tears fall, Jaejoong turned the T.V. on to show Yunho's face on the screen, that dorky smile on his face.
The tears fell as he dropped both the remote and his drink.
He knew of Yunho's love scenes in 'Heading to the Ground' and tried his best not to feel jealous like a lousy boyfriend, but with all this drama in his life... it was hard to see such things.
Leaning forward, Jaejoong took a hold of his hair in both hands and let out a loud sob.
It was too much.
All he wanted was for all this bullshit to end.

A soft melody played through the air, catching his attention for a moment before realizing it was Yunho's ringtone!

Wiping his face clean of the tears, he snatched up the phone from the glass coffee table and answered with a soft 'Hello?'

"Jae? Hey, baby. Your voice sounds weird. You okay?"
"Y-Yunho... can we meet somewhere? Anywhere? I just need you. I need you so bad, Yunnie."

He hadn't mean to sound so whiny, but it was true.
If he didn't have Yunho, in any way really, he felt like he couldn't go on.

"Sure, no problem. Where do you want to meet?"

Jaejoong wiped his aching eyes, wondering where they could go without anyone noticing them. Somewhere where they hadn't been before.
A small smile crossed his face as an ad came on the T.V.

"How about that new Love Hotel, Yunnie?"

----------------------

"A-AH!"

Yunho winced as he watched Jaejoong bounce up and down on his cock.
He always loved it when Jaejoong rode him, but it seemed today that Jaejoong was in a trance.
Jaejoong was staring at the mirror above them, staring at Yunho's half lidded eyes that were watching him.
With a loud moan, his hands reached up to pinch his nipples as hard as he could, making his cock jump in surprise.

"Y-Yunho! Harder! Do me harder!!"

Jaejoong leaned forward, grinding his hips all around and bucking like a mad man.

"J-Jae, babe, slow down! What's the matter?"

Yunho reached down to grab hold of Jaejoong's hips, trying to still his lover.
Jaejoong was panting, trying to move again, but the strong grip on his hips wouldn't allow any movement.
A small whine left his lips followed by a sob as he pressed his face in Yunho's strong chest!
Jaejoong started to smack his hands on Yunho's shoulders, shaking his head from side to side.

"I-It's not fair, Yunho! This is getting out of hand! I-I just want it all to go away. It's not fair."

Yunho sighed softly, before wrapping his arms around his crying lover.
He knew why Jaejoong wanted him.
A shoulder to cry on.
To let some steam out.
To have those arms around him, shushing him and telling him everything would be all right.

Yunho pulled out of Jaejoong, knowing that this wasn't the time to be screwing around.

"Babe... It isn't fair. Everyone knows that. But I am going to tell this because I love you. Because you need to hear it. You, Yoochun and Junsu put yourselves in this mess. You wanted justice, baby. Everyone wants this to end, but you can not show your weakness. You have to be strong. You know that I love you and always support you, right? Suck it up babe! The future is still out there and we will move on, with or without the support! Don't give up, baby."

Yunho had sat up with Jaejoong sitting in his lap, smoothing out his ruffled hair and kissing his throat.
Jaejoong was still shaking with sobs, unable to calm his emotions.
The future was scary.
He didn't want to move on.
All these problems... he didn't want them.

"Jaejoong, please look at me."

Trying to calm his breaths, he slowly looked up at him.
Yunho placed a soft kiss on his forehead and smiled.

"Let's make our own future, Jaejoong."
"Yunho..."

A future together... sounded wonderful.
Maybe... when this was all over... and they were allowed to do whatever...
Jaejoong would ask him to run away with him.
Far away together where no one would bother them.
A happy life waited for them in the future...right?

~Owari~

Ninja Assassin?? Yes please

2009-11-26T04:19:22Z

Just got home from seeing Ninja Assassin...
Oh jeez
OH JEEZ

Rain...
Just...
*melts*

It was so action packed
There was blood everywhere
It was sad
And Rain sweating
Topless
And oh my goodness...
During one scene, his pants were hung so low
I thought he bottom would pop out
I kept murmuring to myself
"Please let them fall please let me see that pale booty"

Just gorgeous
As Shiwon says
'You are so gorgeous'

My gawd I would pour his body in oil and just rub him down and do some things that would make a pervert blush <3 <3 <3

Just wanted to make this known!!!

GO SEE NINJA ASSASSIN!!!!!

Prompt! Finally gonna (try) to do one ^=^

2009-11-19T09:40:22Z

Hello! It's been a while, ne? Well. life is getting better. Nothing major happened, just a change of attitude (and weather) >o<
So I decided to do this for me. To help me work on my writing skills... >o<
A prompt I found on a fansite... not sure exactly what it is but... anyway
Gonna try to do this for me...and YOUS GUYS!!!

To each prompt, there will be a different pairing from a different fandom. Anime, games, k pop, j rock, all that jazz. ^.^ Hopefully will finish it sooner or later. Most likely will post one or two tonight if I feel up to it >o<

1. Future
2. Scars
3. Kiss
4. Children
5. Pain
6. Dream
7. Savior
8. Memory
9. Jealousy
10. Partner
11. Bond
12. Leadership
13. Temper
14. Duty
15. Gift
16. Clothing
17. Change
18. Sick
19. Strength
20. Rain

Preview!!!

2009-10-28T04:16:45Z

So... this is me trying out my Ganguro look
And I love it haha

Used Pokemon stickers on my face.
Piplup and Pikachu!! <333
Just a wig I borrowed from my mom
Gonna get a blond wig hopefully tomorrow and see how that looks ^.^

HALLOWEEN!!!!!

2009-10-27T02:36:29Z

Finally decided what I'm gonna be this year!
Last I was a gypsy with a 120 dollar costume O.o
This year I gotta be cheap
But what I am gonna be pray tell??

GANGURO
Kyahahahahaha
Yeah
It was that or Yoochun Bunny from the Balloons MV
But I thought Ganguro would scare more customers >o<

Not sure what I'm gonna do later that night
But gonna dress up at work
Hopefully not gonna be the only one
Someone else is suppose to be Micheal Jackson >o<

Can not wait!!
Tell me your Halloween plans!!!

Best friend wants me to go with her and her boyfriend to a show, but do not want
Everyone have a wonderful and safe week <333

Parents are now telling me to get out in the world >:[

2009-10-22T06:52:23Z

BLAH
Told my Dad I was depressed because I get this bad vibe at work nowadays.
Relationship issues with the guy in the booth across from mine, another guy found out he has a 14 year son, adding to the list of children he has already which is a 11 or 12 year old daughter and new born baby >o<
Not really depressed.
Just wanted him to get off my back
Now my Mom is worried
And they are both telling me to get outta my room and do something...
What the hell I am gonna do if all my friends are at college and all I do is work??
Whatever

IN OTHER NEWS

I do not know what possessed me to do it, but I bought a Hamtaro backpack off eBay!!! WTH?!?!?
But I also bought a whole list of things <333 Rugrats season 1 and 2, shoes, leg warmers, headphones, another bag >o<
Too much stuff haha
Oh well

ALSO

Currently watching IRIS for the sole reason of TOP, but OH DEARIE ME!!! The lead actor, Lee Byeong-Heon, is delicious and is an amazing actor in my eyes! So INTENSE!!!!! I think this is the first drama I might watch all the way through haha unlike many. I try but I get lazy haha

TO ADD

I went into my first porno shop!!! Hahahaha
It was so frikin cheesey
But they had some kick ass shoes!!!
Cute as hell
Then we (being my best friend, our friend who is male and me) went to the back room ^<^
Where they stash the videos and toys =>-<= Oh me oh my that was a crazy day
The Fist made me want to cry it was so scary haha
Whew
Done with porn shops for a long time

IN CONCLUSION

My life isn't going anywhere and kinda pissing me off
Oh well
Gonna see Paranormal Activity this weekend and super excited cause everyone says it's scary!! Might see Saw 0808979679879 just cause I can. Ummm gotta get DBZ season 9 for my best friends birthday which is monday and I won't see her ;-; And gonna get her a tattoo but since I work there (hopefully) it won't cost a pretty penny >o<

Tomorrow... suppose to pierce a neck and anti-eyebrow...
I have done the anti-eyebrow before (if ya don't know that that is, it's pretty much on your cheek next to your eye)
but the neck mehhhhh
putting it inbetween her tribal tattoo...but the tattoo is slightly crooked o.O
Oh well
She's annoying anyway >o<
Hopefully she'll shut up and let me do it >o<

Well
Update on my boring life... doesn't sound like it from the last paragraph, but that's the norm for me XD
Hope everyone has a safe and wonderful week!!!!
<333

Ahhh iiiiiiioooo

2009-10-06T05:28:57Z

Ahhh a new haircut always makes me feel better ^.^
Might post some pictures of the new do >o<

Really short
Was going for Minji
But ended up more like Seo In Young

Cute non the less

Watching my copy of Yakitate Japan and loving it!!!!
Read (most) of it when it first came out and never finished it ;-;
Never finished watching it either >o<

Tomorrow
Gonna get my tiger tattoo worked on

And a well known (maybe not) photographer is gonna take pictures of my Dad and his business partner!!!
The photographer has done some big named artists like Three Doors Down, Sheryl Crow, Tom Petty, Hank Williams and others!!
Super Excited
Hope he shows up though

That would crush them ;-;

*prays hard*

Hopefully there are still people in the world who keep their word.

In other news

Went and saw Tyler Perry's 'I Can Do Bad All By Myself'
Kinda thought it would be like many of his other movies since Madea was in it
But surprisingly
It was his best one yet
I was sobbing in the theater along with my mother and everyone in the audience

It was just a beautiful movie

It wasn't like his other movies where it was funny, depressing, funny, depressing in that pattern
This one had a wonderful pace

The songs in it were just amazing
I cried through most of them
There was a scene in a church where the preacher was singing
Now, I do not have a religion to lay myself upon
I was never brought up with one

But watching that scene where the preacher was just singing his heart out and sweat beading down his face, singing about getting over 'it' as in whatever is stopping you from moving on with your life, had me sobbing almost. I did my best not to make a sound.
I even did that chest pop thing where you try not to make a sound, but it tries to come out and you stop it ^.^

Ahh such a good movie

Will buy it as soon as it comes out on DVD

Ahhhh
In such a good mood

Gonna get off and watch Yakitate <3333333333333

Hope everyone has a wonderful week!
Be safe!
SARANGHAEYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Prompt??

2009-09-29T05:52:36Z

Maybe
Feeling lots of inspiration flowing through me
And I feel like writing
Both my own OC characters
And maybe AkuRoku
Since Kingdom Hearts comes out today
OMG CAN NOT WAIT!!!!!!!1

*fangirlmode*

Gonna beat it in a day I bet haha

But yeah

Hoping to get more inspiration in my life ^.^

<3 <3 <3

Hope inspiration to do whatever you want comes to you!!!!!

Have a wonderful week!!!

DAMMIT INSPIRATION AS RUN DRY!!!

2009-09-26T08:06:26Z

Boo
Lately
I can't even write my own lovu stories ;-;
Been dry of that spark

Seems like everyone I know is falling in love
And I'm still the five year old, dreaming of being a kid forever DX

Oh well
I'm still waiting and hoping
Which seems like a waste of time yo

BUT
Pat myself on the back for once
Downloaded the first part of KIDS
with Teppei-sama
and was surprised that I understood the first 6 minutes of it without subtitles!!!

YAY
Getting better sorta
Now I have to work on my accent
And pronunciation >o<

Big step for me though
Maybe get Rosetta Stone for X-Mas
Since I just bought a pink dsi today
Stole the money from my savings >o<
Kinda hate myself for it
But I needed it cause the l and r buttons on all my other ds' are broken

Gave my blue on to my sister haha
Oh well
The pink is cute but I kinda like the blue more haha

CAN NOT WAIT FOR TUESDAY!!!!!!!!
KINGDOMHEARTS358/2DAYSOMNOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So excited!
I've been waiting for this game even since it was announced since Orginization 13 was my favorite thing from Kingdom Hearts 2
Especially Xigbar and Xaldin and Demyx and Luxord and Axel and Roxas and Saix <3333

Argh this is why I don't have a love life!!! BLARGH!!!

Welp
It's way late and I have to take my sister to frikin band practice in the morning...
lame ass

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and be safe!!

So excited because I get to see my best friend and we are gonna have dinner and maybe a movie!!
Just us single gals going out like always >o<

SARANGHAEYO!!!
WO AI NI!!!!
AISHITERU!!!!
TI AMO!!!!!
I WUV YOU!!!!!!!!

^^||

I know I updated today but I wanna again... and it's not a fic... ;-;

2009-09-21T01:45:58Z

Sorry
But I have a quick question for Teppei Fans
Just wondering if anyone knew where I could watch 'My Favorite Girl' with Eiji and Teppei as the main characters??
Download or streaming whichever I just really wanna see it ;-;

Also
My co-worker (the only girl I work with) and I were talking about blogs a couple days ago
And I was wondering
Would anyone read mine if I put on up.
Like things about the latest piercings I do
K Pop or J Rock news
Life in general I guess

Thinking about it
And maybe will do one
Livejournal is kinda my blog
But it isn't ... let's say work safe ^^|||
So I might get one up soon
and hope that some will read it ^.^

And please
If anyone has info on Teppei and Eiji's movie
help a girl out ;-;

SARANGHAEYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Announcement!!!!

2009-09-20T16:08:40Z

Nothing big
Just an update on my fics really

Gonna try to post the third chapter of Tongue Lashing as soon as possible. It's been way too long since I have. Mostly because I had a bad experience with one of my customers >o<
Bitch

Also
Gonna get another SID one up soon
And maybe try at another fandom soon
Maybe Gazette or Alice Nine like a cool kid ^.^

Life has been kinda blah lately
Went to my best friends college and got rained on
And saw the life of a college kid
...
Dad said he'd kick me out if I didn't go soon
But I REALLY wanna go abroad
That's what I really wanna do
Either Japan, Korea or some European place
But since I know Japanese and learning Korean, Europe isn't looking bright >o< Really wanna go to Italy where my Mom use to live. Dunno where it was though ^^|||

Well
Using my friend computer at the moment
So when I get home
I will try to get something entertaining up hopefully
And also trying to finish a Big Bang fic that I've been working on since My Heaven MV came out >o<

Hope everyone has a safe rest of the weekend or week wherever you may be <333

I just realized

2009-09-16T21:58:51Z

I was born in 1900... I am pretty sure it was 90.... but what do I know >0

5 question meme

2009-09-15T02:48:38Z

From the ever amazing doralice_29

5 Questions Meme
Leave me a comment saying "DIFFICULT, DIFFICULT, LEMON DIFFICULT",
I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can get to know you better.
Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.

1) What do piercings mean for you?
Hmmm really they are something that needs something thrown in the mix that makes it different. I like to do surface piercings but would never get one. I like piercing nice people and not dickheads haha >o< All in all, piercing keeps me close to my father and makes money ^.^

2) What do you do on weekends?
Saturdays are my double shift days. Sometimes I work and sometimes I skip it to hang out with my best friend and we go out and go see the Wiggles like the kids we are >o< And Sundays are my day off where I sleep in and sometimes go to the movies and have dinner with friends

3) Why do you like yaoi? (This is something I never saw being asked)
... umm hahah well let's see... cause I like how penises look and hate how vaginas look since I've seen way too many haha. And two penises instead of a penis and a vagina are much better to picture. Also a turn on *blush* But most of all, forbidden love is one of the best

4) Who would you choose between DBSK and SID? Why?
Choose??? Jeez...ummm... haha I am not sure because drama happens way too much that I am leaning towards j rock more again haha but still DBSK is one of my many fandoms that I haven't strayed from like I have many bands ;-; so.................................. it's a tie cause I'm a bitch ass punk haha

5) What’s your favorite jrock song and why?
Favorite?? umm... either... Embryo or Kodou by Dir en Grey because Kyo is in fact my God. I only regret that he didn't spit blood on me when I went to see them live T.T ... wow that's kinda messed up, ne??? hahahaha but I think Embryo is top cause the uncensored lyrics always hit a sad spot in my heart cause it's way too sad and the lyrics are based on things that have actually happened in the world which is sad ;-;

there we go
if someone wants to do it
hit me up yo

I remember doing these things on myspace!!

2009-09-14T02:29:26Z

How old are you going to be when you get married?

Put an X in every box that applies to you.
Add up all the x's and title subject with the sum as "My marriage age is__"

[X] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[X] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own more than one credit card
[x] You know how to change the oil in a car
[X] You do your own laundry
[ ] You vote every election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[ ] You think politics are exciting
[ ] You balance your own checkbook
[x] Your parents have better things to say than your friends
TOTAL SO FAR: 6

[x] You show up for school/college/work every day early.
[x] You always carry a pen in your pocket/purse
[x] You've never gotten a detention
[ ] You have never smoked a cigarette
[ ] You have never gotten completely trashed
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once
[x] You like to take walks by yourself
[ ] You've watched talk shows.
[x] You know what 'credibility' means without looking it up
[X] You drink coffee[caffeine] at least once a week.
TOTAL SO FAR: 12

[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[x] You can count to 10 in another language.
[ ] When you say you're going to do something you do it.
[x] My parents trust me
[ ] You can mow the lawn
[x] You can make adults laugh without being stupid
[ ] You remember to water the plants
[ ] You study when you have to
[ ] You pay attention at school/college
[X] You remember to feed your pets
TOTAL SO FAR: 17

[ ] You can spell 'experience' without looking it up.
[ ] You work out on a regular basis.
[x] You clean up your own mess
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[x] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[ ] You have gained weight since middle/high school
[ ] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine
[ ] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type quickly
TOTAL SO FAR: 20

[X] You have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[x] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[x] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job (no one takes me seriously even though I have a damn job >:[)
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[x] Most of all your friends are older than you are
[x] You can say no to staying out all night
[x] You use the internet every day
[x] Your wardrobe hasn't changed in a while
[x] You can read a book and actually finish it
TOTAL SO FAR: 28

My marriage age is 28

FUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCK that a long way away ;-; I hope not!!!

Under my Skin

2009-09-06T15:50:43Z

My dad is super funny

He is... 54? 55?
Yeah he's kinda on the old side, has a daughter who is 32 and I don't her haha but still he's the best

Riding home in my NEW car <333 from having lunch with my sister for her birthday
And we were listening to Gackt
He doesn't like him very much since it was Love Letter and we were both sleepy

So I tell him to grab my CDs and pick a different CD

He goes through them and was like 'How about Micro-Tic?'
I didn't know what that was until I turned to look at him

It was Mirotic haha

He puts it in and after Jaejoong's first couple lines, he's like
'Oh I know this song!'

I couldn't help but laugh and didn't believe him at first.
But when they started to say 'I got youuuuuu'
Dad sang 'Under My Skin'

I burst out laughing and almost ran off the highway >o<

That's why my dad is my favorite haha

Welp
Gonna get ready for a day of movie going with my bestest friend in the world ^.^

Hope everyone as a safe Sunday, a splendid week and a great Labor Day
Gonna work cause People will want to get pierced hopefully haha

Teppei-chan <3

2009-08-31T03:56:49Z

Lately, I've been loving me some adorable little japanese man named Koike Teppei <333

First saw him in the live action movie Love Com aka Lovely Complex and fell in love
So I had checked it up and such

OH JEEZ

He's too damn cute!!!

*sigh*
I want one!!!

Oh well

Plus

A tale of woe
Went to a lame ass show last night with my best friend after work... and after I saw the Wiggles live in concert!!!
Yeah, the Wiggles <333

Well, was gonna hook up with my best friends boyfriends best friend but failed haha
Oh well
There goes my chance flying into the sun like Icarus >:[
*sigh*
I guess I will wait a little longer >o<

But I get my new car tomorrow!!!!!!
A 2000 Grand Am pontiac that is a super awesome blue ^.^
Not the nicest but it's pretty cute and my FIRST car!!!
Just turned 19 and getting my first car

Welp, gonna go to bed cause I have to wake up early and go all around the world tomorrow!!
Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!

B-I-G TO THE BANG

2009-08-18T19:10:54Z

has nothing to do with big bang haha

Got from doralice_29
She gave me SID <333

Put your ten favorite songs by the band you receive on your LJ and challenge others to do the same.

1. Chapter 1
A song that always stays near and dear to my heart because it helped me get through some really hard times in my life. Sounds like I'm being drama but It's true <333

2. Namida no Ondo
I'm a sucker for ballads and I had to wait for it forever haha well it felt forever

3. Uso
I love the sound of it. Just that simple haha

4. Otegami
My 2nd SID song that I heard (Chapter 1 being the first) and I loved the music video cause the Geisha creeped me out badly

5.Hosoi Koe
It's a sad parting that makes me think of a love that I want to know but do not want to experience haha

6.Hikari
Another ballad. The lyrics are just so beautiful and Mao's voice in this song makes me melt

7.Mascara
Cause the lyrics are so sad and have an 'adult' feel to them, if that makes sense haha

8.Smile
This song makes me Smile of course. Sweet and happy

9.live
Don't need a reason to love this song. It's way too amazing haha

10. Ajisai
The 3rd music video I saw of SID and it inspired me to write a story that was 60 pages long but never finished it cause it was pretty childish haha

anyone can do it but you don't have to DX

Heartbreaker

2009-08-18T17:15:37Z

Hope things come out all right for GD... ;-;
But I haven't watched all the video yet and had to stop it at a certain part...
It was after the chorus for the first time...
I paused it at 1:28....
and thought of the Chris Crocker
It made me laugh
But jeez!!!
Jiyoung-oppa you better watch your back
Backstabbers are coming outta all kinda HOLES!!!
OPPA HWAITING!!!

In other news

I got my new tattoo!!!!
A fierce tiger!!!
Gonna add more to it
Going with the 'Four Gods' thing from Chinese/Vietnamese legend haha (not sure which one it came from)
And also...
MY 'PRINCE OF PRAGUE' CAME IN!!!

I've been waiting two weeks!!
Have to wait for my dad to pick it up since I still don't have a car >:[
I have 'Please Be Mine' but I didn't get the DVD cause bleh Kinda regret it but maybe someone will sub it and I can download it
Cause my Korean is still really really bad
Oh well

Hope everyone has a wonderful day!
And pray for G Dragon!!!
He needs it with all these crazy things going on.
AND just before his birthday ;-;
I still love Heartbreaker though

I am an Anti-Christ

2009-08-14T03:14:07Z

Not really
I must have a personality disorder or something
One minute I'm rocking out to Beauty and the Beast
and then the next second I'm singing Anarchy in the U.K.
LOL
And plus so much drama in my life
I'm ready to murder so bitch ass liars

UGH

Gonna sing some more Sex Pistols and Disney songs to myself while trying to relax just a little
I need something nice in my life
Since I turned 19, everything has been going downhill

Now I don't have a car >:[
Oh well things could be worse

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and stay safe
I'm going to try haha

Lame ass

2009-08-09T02:22:02Z

Ugh worst birthday ever

But hopefully it will get better

Tomorrow going to a water park

And super excited

Didn't get what I wanted

Got rings

All that barely fit my finger >o<

Yesterday was just terrible

On the way home I was listening and singing with Gackt but was sobbing so hard it made me laugh and cry at the same time. Makes me laugh right now

But I saw Julie and Julia and oh man such a cute ass movie

Oh well

UGH gonna do something besides pout

Hope everyone has a wonderful and safe weekend

Why??

2009-07-31T16:33:24Z

Everyone has heard the news about DBSK right?
Ugh
What a way to start my day ;-;
I hope, God I hope, that they don't break up
Or maybe they will leave SM and go do their own thing
If they did
I wouldn't mind
As long as they would still be together
This is big ass news
Buhhhhhh
This is heart wrenching
I hate being stuck in a shit hole town not knowing what the hell is going on in the world
Shit
UGH
Gotta get ready for work
So glad I got my new amazing phone so I can keep track on what's happening in the world ;-;

Please don't get crazy Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu!!!

buuuuuuuuuh

Can I get 2 fuckin minutes for myself?! Just two

2009-07-18T03:49:11Z

Warning: The F word is used a lot
And by F word
I meant fuck, fuckin, fucking or fudge
This is me venting

So
For the last couple weeks
I have been running all over the fuckin world for everyone I know
My best friend found out that her fuckin ex fucked a girl after she had left his house one night
They weren't even frikin dating!! She was just soooo upset about him doing that girl behind her back and everyone knowing it but her.
I didn't know
I didn't care about him fuckin some skank bitch
He always does it
Big frikin whoop
They kept going on and off and it was the pattern where she 'loved him' and when he would ignore her, she would hate him for MONTHS
I just went along with it
it was love hate love hate love hate, a couple months ago it was love again and now it's hate because she just wants someone to call her boyfriend
It's always been like that
So she called me yesterday at frikin 12:39 at night and had to tell me of her woe until 1:23
I fell asleep thrice
I love her to death
I do
But you would think she would learn
Now she's depressed and I was suppose to go with her to the mall but I told her I had to work until 6
She planned it out like this
She would go to the mall which is an hour away from home house, GO BACK to her house, and then go with her mom to see harry potter in Nashville which is like an hour and thirty minutes away
I sometimes wonder what is wrong with her planning

Also
Today hasn't been the best
Woke up at 6
Left the house at 7 to go band camp with my sister so I could teach the ignorant pricks their damn music
Went to Micky D's to get her some breakfast
Spent fuckin 9 dollars on some damn biscuits with egg and cheese, hashbrowns and some fuckin orange juice
That was for like five days a week for my hateful sister
Go to fuckin band camp and get dis-fuckin-respected by some frikin retarded bitch who can't open her mouth and make words that seem human (she's not retarded just a fat bitch) my crazy ass sister, a disrespectful little asshole who tries to be sexy when he's fuckin 14 or some bullshit and a 12 year old who cries cause he can't get the music right
I understand it's hard
But put your big boy pants on and get over it
So what if you dad is a total asshole that makes me want to rip my hair out?
Get over it
Then the asshole who ran the whole shebang held everyone over 15 minutes so I had to run to sonic to get her lunch which was frikin 7 bucks for hers and like 4 for my lunch
Making me late to get home and get ready to work and zoom to work where I would do a double shift

Yesterday tried to finish my damn tattoo and it hurt
It hurt like a fuckin bitch
And now she looks like a damn monster
Only because she's shaded so fuckin dark
I don't blame my dad
But everyone looks at it weird and makes me self conscious (as if i don't have enough problems)

Tomorrow instead of having two minutes for myself
I have to get up around 10 so i can get ready for work, go to the post office and work a fuckin double shift tomorrow
I have worked two fuckin double shifts this week
I have made about 80 dollars the entire week
I am not happy at all
And my damn dog is trying to eat some kinda bug in my room and making me laugh so it's a little better

Plus
The damn icing on my fuckin chocholate cake of life even though i hate chocolate cake
I come home today after a shitty day
Fuckin dog shit everywhere
My fuckin sister
who couldn't get off her fat skinny ass to let the dogs out
instead let them piss and shit all over the house
I walk in the dark home
because said sister didn't even turn on the fuckin porch light
and hear the most annoying sound for the SECOND time this week
Squish
Yup
Dog shit on my favorite slip on shoes
I am done
I am going to eat some hot chips, watch whose line is it anyway
And tell the world to fuck off
I haven't any time for myself for the past two weeks
And I am tired
So I might find a damn hotel room
And stay there until my parents realize all the bullshit I go through for my damn family
Starting with taking of a dog who couldn't even walk to picking up my sister from wherever every fuckin day since my father is trying to make a living and my mother is dicking (almost put ducking lawl) around
And the only thing I want for my fuckin birthday is a fuckin Pembroke Welsh Corgi (I know I just complained about piss and shit but UGH) and they refuse to get me one
So I'm going to have a fuckin merry fuckin 19th birthday this year
It's on a Friday so I have to work all day
Looking forward to it

END OF MY RANT

We're 2NE1

2009-07-08T16:58:53Z

My morning started so gay... >:{
Mother called my best friends cell phone to tell me to get up and go help the marching band even though they are losers and aren't gonna go very far cause they are WHAT? losers... so mean I am but so true it is.
Then I was torn between going BACK to my best friends house for like... an hour or so before going to work or coming home, getting the new 2NE1 mini-album, eating some yummy leftovers and drinking a nice cool cherry coke... 2NE1 always wins haha
One minute remaining!
Ugh
Gonna make a CD and go to work ;-;
Bai <3

Captor

2009-07-06T04:56:42Z

Title: Captor
Author: chibihisagi
Rating: NC-17
Pairing/Fandom: Mao/?/ SID/?
Genre: Kink/Smut
Length: One Shot
Disclaimer: I do not own anything
Summary: Mao is bound, hard and doesn't know who did this to him
A/N: This was done on the... 29th... or 30th...whenever the first rip Hikari came out. This is my celebration fic of a wonderful album!!! (also, don't mind if there are some mistakes... I had my nails 'done' and they are pretty long... very hard to type with...and my 'p' button is acting up >o<)

His hands were tied together above his head, making him unable to move away from his captor. Over his eyes was a silk cloth that made him even more nervous than he already was. When he tried to keep his legs closed, warm calloused hands grabbed his thighs to pry them apart. He could feel the heat of another person near him. Feel the heated stare at his erect cock.
It was embarrassing.
He felt as if he was going to die.

"P-Please... let me go..."

A sharp slap was all he received.

It made tears well up that instantly soaked into the cloth.

"Be a good boy and it'll be so much easier, Mao-kun."

His voice was low, amused and just dripped with sex. It made a shiver run up and back down Mao's spine. So all he could do was node his head and let the man do what he pleased.

Those rough hands grabbed his milky thighs once more before prying them apart and holding his legs wide open, exposing everything.
Mao let out a small whimper as he began to squirm. His captor let out a loud growl before surprising Mao with sharp nips all over his legs!
He started with his thin ankles before leaving soft open mouth kisses against his calf and began suckling his inner thigh.
How did Mao get himself into this?
Yet, he couldn't do much about it.
His arms were useless to fight his captor.
This man's grip wouldn't let go of his legs.
Before he knew it, one leg was resting on the man's shoulder while his free hand started to stroke Mao's dripping penis.
His toes curled from the touch of this man.
Sparks tingled his fingers and toes as the hand picked up speed. Mao couldn't help but let out a long moan, letting his body relax even though his mind was panicking.
He still couldn't see.

"Starting to really feel it, huh? Well, the best part is to come."

His hand left the hard organ which made Mao begin to wiggle his hips as if to find that hand once more.

"Greedy little thing, aren't cha?"

Mao didn't want agree with him so he just spread the leg that wasn't on his captors shoulder out a little more, making sure he could show of the most secret part of him.
He heard the soft gasp and knew he had him where he wanted.

"Ne, can you take this blindfold off, sir? I promise to be super good if you do."

Mao made sure to use his sweetest voice, hoping to woo the man.
A chuckle, a pop of a cap and soon something9 was stroking his puckered hole.
A cool finger that made Mao tense up, knowing what was coming.

"Ne, how about we leave it on and you relax a little. You will be a good boy no matter what or else."

The man without any warning, slid a lubed finger into Mao, making him gasp loudly.
It had been a long while since he had been penetrated and without warning even! It made his toes curl and made his finger make crescent marks in his palms.

"Hey, loosen up, babe. You'll break my damn finger if ya keep this up. Relax."

Soft lips found their way to Mao's, softly pressing against them in an innocent kiss. Mao was taken aback by the sudden contact, but soon returned the kisses, nipping at his captor's lip.
While he was distracted by the kiss, another finger made it's way into the warm cavern, making Mao moan softly.
It felt better now that he was use to it, yet strange that those long fingers were probing slowly, most likely missing that 'spot' on purpose.
It wasn't until the third finger was shoved deep inside him when his prostate was slightly brushed, making his back arch off the bed.

"Found it."

It was then the fingers started to attack the bundle of nerves that kept Mao panting and writhing underneath his captor.

"P-P-PLeeease! I need it. Please!"
"Need what, Mao-kun?"
"Y-Your..."
"My?"

Mao clenched his hands once again before letting out a small whine and wiggling his hips.

"Your cock! Please put you cock in my ass and fuck me senseless!"

Mao's captor chuckled softly before leaning over him and untying his hands from the bed post.

"Here's what we are going to do. I'm going to untie you from the post, but keep your hands tied together. What you are going to do is ride me. Okay? I'll help you out getting on, but you are going to help get me off."

Mao wanted to chuckle at the lame pun but his aching twitching member told him otherwise.
He need to be filled to the brim now.
With a soft nod, he felt himself being pulled up from the bed and pressed against the skin of another.
Warm.
Mao wanted to snuggle into the warmth.
Before he could, his captor put his arms over his head, letting him feel the soft strands on his arms and adjusted his legs so that he was straddling the man.

"I'll position it. You lower yourself. If you can make me cum, then you will be free to go. But you aren't allowed to cum before me. Understood? Or else."
"Y-Yes."

Mao felt the rough hand take a hold of one of his cheeks, before smacking harshly!
A squeak left Mao's lips before he felt the warm tip pressing lightly against his puckered entrance.
He knew what he had to do.
So with a deep breath, he slowly lowered himself on the stiff organ, wincing at the slight burn from the penetration.
He kept going and going until his bottom was resting on his captors thighs.

A soft sigh brushed his cheek before the man's hands slid down the side of Mao's body, squeezed his hips before running his hands back up to tweak Mao's sensitive nipples.

"Why aren't you moving, Mao-kun? Didn't I say you have to do all the work? Go on, babe."

Mao clenched his jaw as the man pinched his nipples and left small kisses on his neck.
Wishing he could take the blindfold off, he started to lift his butt up ever so slowly, letting the long hard cock inch it's way out so only the tip remained.
Mao let out a long shaky breath and slammed himself down again!
A groan was all he heard before he was thrown down on his back and had his blindfold ripped off!

"Too damn slow, Mao-kun."

Mao didn't open his eyes as he was penetrated once more!
This time, it didn't take long for Mao to get accustomed to the thick length as the man above him pounded him again and again.
The soft sound of skin slapping skin would have embarrassed Mao, but at the moment, he was too engrossed in the feeling of ecstasy to care.
His legs wrapped around the man, pulling him closer so that his stomach barely grazed Mao's red tipped cock.
It was hellish and heavenly.
But he didn't want to cum before his captor. He didn't want to know what 'or else' was.

So he peeked his eyes open to see the sweaty chest above him, those dark colored nipples begging to be sucked.
Mao couldn't help but lean up on his elbows and suckle on the man's nipples.
It caught the man by surprise.

So the man took hold of Mao's throbbing member and began to stroke in time with this rapid thrusts.
Mao let his voice raise higher and higher until he let out a loud, shrill cry and his seed squirted on his captor's hands and his stomach!
His body began to spasm as he clenched his muscles around the thick cock inside him.

Finally, when he body finally relaxed, Mao felt a couple more thrusts from his captor before the strange feeling of cum was released inside of him.
Both were panting loudly.
The air con clicked on.
Mao snuggled up into his captors chest, loving the feel of the cool air blowing on them and the musky smell coming from the other man.

"You were much to rough tonight."
"But that's how you like it, Mao-kun."

Mao sighed softly before looking up at his lovers eyes.

"Yeah, Yuuya-kun. I love you."

Yuuya smiled at his cute little lover before leaning down and placing a sweet, loving filled kiss on Mao's lips.

"Yeah I love you too, Mao-chan."

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